January 2010
34 posts
i think i adore you
Jan 31st
yesterday's adventure
so yesterday a bunch of the varsity kids went to jv’s first competition to support/check out the competition/ admire pulse and it was pretty fun, although hella cold. started the day off picking everyone up at phanphan’s. tried a mac snack wrap thing where it’s like a mini bigmac burrito. it was yummeh. then we started driving down to roosevelt. i didn’t want to drive so...
Jan 31st
one day
xkrogen: cocojuju: i’ll get my chance to really make someone happy, and vice versa You’ve made me very happy… Probably more than you think. haha. probably. because you’re so damn emotionless so i never know if you’re feeling fill in the blank :P but thanks. that was sweet
Jan 30th
my mom left for china
i miss her
Jan 30th
jessica he
thank you so much for this music fix
Jan 27th
i'm tempted
to drive down and get a drink just so i can say hi :)
Jan 27th
it's been so long
since i’ve felt this content with life. i guess i’ve finally accepted that unexpected things really do happen…unexpectedly and there’s no getting around it. i’ve wasted way too much time trying to change what it was, not seeing that i wasn’t living anymore. i was just there, going through the motions. but i don’t want to do that anymore. i want to...
Jan 27th
one day
i’ll get my chance to really make someone happy, and vice versa but until then, i’ll keep my options and heart open
Jan 26th
i'm happy
that you’re here to take my mind off of everything. thanks for always texting me just to say hi. making sure i’m okay. keeping a smile on my face. and being there when i just need a shoulder to cry on.
Jan 26th
it’s hurts the most because you’re such an amazing person, and i thought you’d never let go 
Jan 23rd
123
now i seriously haven’t done this in forever.  1. my mom’s friend just bought me a real backpack on ebay. :D i’ll miss my beatup EE Smithsonian backpack though. we had a good ride, buddy  2. going to the yao’s yesterday was sooo fun! and watching them watch basketball is all too entertaining. 3. we get new music today i think <3 4. yesterday played last word at...
Jan 23rd
Jan 21st
what's the point
of putting up with all this anymore? it seems like every time i get a little better something bad happens and brings me back down to square one. having to pick myself up again and again is really wearing me out.  can’t i just fall? 
Jan 21st
i'm sorry for always saying this
but i really need you right now, michael. 
Jan 21st
thank you tim boehr
Jan 21st
yeah, right now, i don't really know what to say...
i’m tired 
Jan 21st
i'm at a loss right now
and just can’t seem to find my way.  i keep going back and forth, not knowing where i’m supposed to go or what i should do.  i’m getting dizzy  
Jan 19th
i am trying so hard not to be pissed right now
but honestly, go fuck yourself
Jan 18th
Jan 17th
i should be studying,
but i’ve decided to sync my iphone for the first time in MONTHS and that means i need to find all the songs that i have been deprived on due to my laziness. i realize this is a really bad time to do it but i just can’t bring myself to work diligently right now. kaitlyn and rachel are coming over soon to go get lunch before spaghetti dinner. i fail
Jan 16th
i wish you would go away
Jan 16th
because the world just doesn’t seem to have enough of them, i want to be that stranger people meet on the sidewalk who shows an act of kindness and makes them realize that there really are good people in the world.
Jan 16th
LOL. i've only liked 17 posts
Jan 15th
i am number 77,513
what number will you be?
Jan 15th
Jan 15th
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i'm actually trying not to be selfish anymore
it’s quite amazing. i guess i’ve never really noticed that in some cases, what i want is all i can see. i completely disregarded the fact that i was holding on for my own selfish reasons. i couldn’t let go because i just didn’t want to let go. thinking about myself again. but lately, i’ve respected what you’ve asked of me. it tears me apart inside having to...
Jan 15th
1 note
i have a tendency to believe in signs
and the song your dad used to sing to you has been played on my pandora station three times today.
Jan 12th
Jan 12th
again
i’m a crazy ball of emotions right now. it’s like i’m really pissed at everything and then i stop and think about why i’m pissed and end up getting pissed at myself for being pissed and it turns into this endless cycle of pathetic pissy-ness. like wtfuck T_T i know i have absolutely no reason to be so angry at my life at the moment and yet i can’t help but be a...
Jan 12th
yeah. this is all fucked up
Jan 12th
i'm doing this for me
because i know it’s not right anymore. things change and people change and sometimes they just aren’t who you thought they were. in the beginning you think you can just cope with it and learn to accept and move on, but i realize i really can’t anymore. trying to ignore how i feel because of this is getting tiring and it’s just draining me. so i choose to make life a little...
Jan 12th
i miss being held in someone's arms
and the overwhelming sense of security that comes with it
Jan 11th
Jan 10th
1 note
hey guys,
just wanted to let you know i’m still alive
Jan 6th